Beginning of Sexual Pred. (Spoiler.. child abuse))
Question:
Jennifer, Thanks for sharing your story, as painful as it is. I think by choosing to share it you help erase the attitude of that kind of thing does not happen. (I do not think that many people would claim that it does not happen, but there is something about hearing someone’s story that drives home the fact that it does.) It also shows that you are fighting back and taking care of yourself now, in a way that you could not then. I admire the hell out of you for that. Wishing you continues strength and love in your life. — Yours, Cup’oJoe
Warning: this post may get very explicit or it may be
mellow. I may freak out or I may be fine. I may do alot of things in here tonight,
but I need to. Thats – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -the point. So no flaming, no bitchin or harpin and carpin. Dont read this if you have a problem with sexual abuse survivors speaking out and expressing anger Ok? ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^^^ ^^^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^ The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5
years old. Five. How can you look at a 5 yo little girl and want to do this? I will
never know. His name is Donald James Low and his fathers name is Ralph Low, his moms name is Viola something or other. He has a wife named Cathy now. The Low family came from Montana. ( I say these things in case someone knows this
animal or his father who is a child molester as well) Donald lives in the
Valley area of Spokane Washington and is a registered sex offender in Spokane
County. He was recently released from Geiger Correctional Center. He is tall and
fat with short brown hair and blue eyes. Cathy and him have 2 little girls, can you believe this?? He had children after me??!! My mom met him when I was 5 and he started right in on
me. They married and I sat there with my secret knowing what he would do to me.
He and my mother had a baby girl , my sister who is now 16.The sad part is that I loved him like my daddy cause I never had one while I was little. I felt
betrayed and confused when this began but I knew it was a secret. A bad bad secret. Saturday morning, I came down to watch cartoons and he was sleeping on the couch. I curled up next to him on the sofa and turned on
the tv. Oh, I was just a baby wanting to watch cartoons that morning, and my life changed forever. He pretended he was sleeping when he started and called me by my mothers name of all things. Pulled off my little panties with the flowers, pink flowers. There it all began. The seed was planted. He got away with it and I never let on to the fact that I knew he was awake. I saw him looking. At first it was just touching and feeling and
petting. Just being ever so innocent and secret. I knew this was bad though, very
bad, but I didnt know what it was….I was so confused. Then came oral sex. He would force me to touch his penis and watch him masturbate over the toilet. He wanted me to touch his semen and I did. I didnt know what else to do. Then he started performing oral sex on me whenever he felt like it. He did these things right under my moms nose. Shed be sleeping on the couch and he’d reach over and do it. Shed go to the
store and hed take me in the bedroom. One night he took me to a park and I remember trying
to convince him that the sprinklers would hit our car if he parked. Anything my 6 year old mind could think to save myself. It was dark and I could hear the sprinklers tick tick ticking. I shattered that night, splintered off into someone else. I got lost in a crack in the window and I dont know if I ever
really came back. I can still smell the alcohol and cigarettes on his breath and feel his probing hands. He ripped my panties and theygot lost in the car somewhere. The sick part is that I think my mom should have
known. How can you not know when your 5 yo screams and cries when you leave her with the animal?? I dont get it mom. Didnt you see the behavioral changes, bed wetting, temper tantrums, moodiness? I was a classic case for god sake Of course he said I couldnt tell cause mom would be mad, shed be jealous and
hurt he said. Me being so young and niave, believed him. Dont want to hurt mom at all now do we? No daddy, we dont. Its ok daddy, I wont tell. Promise. I
promise daddy I wont tell. Well good cause then I might have to hurt you too, might have to kill your mom and all. Ok daddy I wont I promise, dont tell
mommy the secret and dont hurt her ok? Good girl, now lay down you little whore. You are my free little prostitute, all I want for free. You like this dont you?? Tell me you like it alot. And I did. I told the sick bastrd I liked it. He later used it in court, said I wanted it to happen too. That sick fuck used objects and fingers on me. He used my moms dildo on me. I think now he didnt want to get it for rape so he
never penetrated me with his penis, always something else. A damn dildo for god
sake, my own mothers. Then he went home and used it on her, he told me about it the next day. He sodomized me with that fucking thing. And anything else he thought would get him off. He would talk about watching me naked in the shower
when mom was out of the room. Hed reach over and cop a feel when she looked away. This went on til I was 11 years old. For 6 years this bastard violated me every way possible without using his penis. Prolly feared physical evidence such as semen as well I can only speculate. I layed down
and took it like a big girl. When I finally told mom she was horrified. But….get
this……stayed with him foe another year!!! Slept with him after I told her
what he did to me. He knew I told and she threatned to turn him in if he did it
again, so he stopped. But went right on fucking my mother anyways. She let him, that fucking whore fucked him after he did this to me. Course now she says sorry and all. Oh the medication and the therapy, it all is so
insignificant compared to what he took from me. He took my life away from me. Then
went on his merry way. Sure he did some time in prison but he got more than his
original sentence for being caught around kids again! In total he did 10 years
and only a few months were related directly to what he did to me. The rest he did for getting caught living with his wife and 2 girls. Yes, he has 2 girls. A
convicted child rapist can still father children, he just cant live with them anymore. He got 10 years of free counseling, a roof over his head and all the help he needed. I got nothing but a broken hymen and a life of grief and misery. Nothing but sexual dysfunction and vomiting. Nothing, I am nothing compared to what he did. I am still lost in the crack in the windshield that night. Forever shattered in a million splintering pieces jabbed into my
five year old heart. Two hands feel like 20 when your 5, 10, 15, 25. Those two hands are forever molestng me no matter where I go you sick fuck!! I run from you but your in my sleep. My bloody dreams where you die and I kill you dead over and over and over you fuck. I need so much fucking medication I am sick from it. I hope someone here knows you you fucking pervert
theif, or your dad Ralph, the beginner of it all. Or your brother Clint. You bastard
fuck I hate you. You sonofabitch child raper. You have no idea what I thnk about your funeral. I will jump up and down adn cry with joy and sing like a
bird. I will break a bottle of bubbly over your casket and offer everyone
drinks! Ill spit in your grave and then shit on you, better yet Ill pee in your mouth while you lay there cold watching from below while you rot in hell. God doesnt allow demons like you in heaven and I will be there waiting for you sick fuck I will always be waiting and watching for you. Waiting for you to die and suffer a long agonizing existence in hell. I cant wait until the day. The only way it could be better is if I could kill you myself. What pleasuer Id get from watching your blood run over on the ground like my soul did when you broke it. Exhausted, screaming, crying, hurt, feel like throwing up,
but Im not done yet. I have more but I cant go on cause I can barely type now
through the tears. I feel like I purged and I hope someone here knows you.
Please tell me if you do, Id get a kick out of it for sure. Them knowing what an
animal you are Donald James Low. DONALD JAMES LOW sick fucking child rapist. IT CAN BE RAPE< EVEN IF YOU DIDNT USE YOUR THING AND I
NEVER SAID NO< I WAS – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -ONLY 5 bastard. Jennifer
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A while ago I saw this header.I avoided reading it because I know myself. This header sounded like a rape or a continuing molesting.I pray I am dead wrong. I have a severe reaction when I hear about these two subjects. I get VERY angry. Just reading the little of it I did, my heart pounded harder,my teeth clenched and I had to get away from the monitor. God be with the man who does this too someone close to me. If any of you ladies go thru this terrible action,E mail me and we’ll talk about getting rid of this problem. Jenny,I didn’t read the original post.If you don’t mind (if it’s not too painful) I would like you too Email me and explain the "low down". Don’t leave me wandering about you hon’. Seriously concerned, SLEEPY – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dear Jennifer, How courageous of you. I’m so sorry about everything that happened…. Deciding to write all this stuff is truely amazing. You should be so proud of yourself. I am. (((((((((((((Jennifer)))))))))))) ~Ann </PRE</HTML Dear Ann, Thank you, I need the support, it felt really good to do it. Unfortunatley I have read posts like something about allowing him to continue for still being angry. That hurt alot. Some people heal differently I just wish they would not impose their ideals on me. But anyways, what do they know? Thanks again hon, really! Jennifer "and if I feel rage I wont deny it, I wont fear love…and if I shed a tear I wont cage it, I wont fear love" Sarah McLachlan
– Sincerly, SLEEPY <yawn "You know what your problem is baby?….no one’s ever given you the Aunt Jemima treatment." Bill Murray- Stripes
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Dear Jennifer, How courageous of you. I’m so sorry about everything that happened…. Deciding to write all this stuff is truely amazing. You should be so proud of yourself. I am. (((((((((((((Jennifer)))))))))))) ~Ann </PRE</HTML
Dear Ann, Thank you, I need the support, it felt really good to do it. Unfortunatley I have read posts like something about allowing him to continue for still being angry. That hurt alot. Some people heal differently I just wish they would not impose their ideals on me. But anyways, what do they know? Thanks again hon, really! Jennifer "and if I feel rage I wont deny it, I wont fear love…and if I shed a tear I wont cage it, I wont fear love" Sarah McLachlan
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Oh Jen, I’m sorry that response was written & that it hurt you. You didn’t LET him do anything to you then and you certainly aren’t LETTING him do anything to you know. Always remember that. Pam )
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -^ you are letting this man continue to molest you through your own anger.get the help you need so you can put this behind you </PRE</HTML Um, well I thought I was helping myself actually by getting this out for someone else to read…. "I" am letting him continue to molest me? Im trying not to get upset at this post,maybe I misunderstand this? Do rape victims let themselves be raped again by hurting over it? Um, still trying not to go off and explode…breath Jenn breath. I posted for support, not to be told I am doing it to myself and need help. I obviously know I need help. Being on meds and in therapy and all – think Im getting help allrighty. Despite what you may think "getting help" does not mean the anger will ever totally subside or that the nightmares will stop. I will always be wounded that this happenned to me. If someone cuts your arm off do you just get help and go on? Doesnt it always hurt deep down that the arm is gone? Do you ever wonder "gee what if I had that ol arm of mine?" Cause thats what it feels like, like he ripped my f*cking heart out and stomped on it. I have been given permission to feel the hurt for the first time in my life and now youre trying to take that from me? Stop hurting. Well ok then. You stop being depressed and I will stop hurting that the ass*ole raped me for god sake. Add this post to the list entitled "WHat never ever ever to say to an abuse victim" My god, allowing him to molest me? These words should have never come out in the same sentence. Do you have any idea how bad this hurts me? You just set me back a long ways……here I was feeling all strong and happy. Thanks for ripping it away. Thanks for bringing tears to my eyes and making me want to heave and vomit again. Im glad you are good at putting things behind you, but then I am not as emotionally superior as you are. Are you a normie or something? A person with a heart or soul would never say this. But then again, perhaps youve never been raped with a beer bottle huh? If I have taken this all wrong I apologize, I just think it was insensitive and inapprapriate to say this. Jennifer
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) ^ you are letting this man continue to molest you through your own anger.get the help you need so you can put this behind you </PRE</HTML
Um, well I thought I was helping myself actually by getting this out for someone else to read…. "I" am letting him continue to molest me? Im trying not to get upset at this post,maybe I misunderstand this? Do rape victims let themselves be raped again by hurting over it? Um, still trying not to go off and explode…breath Jenn breath. I posted for support, not to be told I am doing it to myself and need help. I obviously know I need help. Being on meds and in therapy and all – think Im getting help allrighty. Despite what you may think "getting help" does not mean the anger will ever totally subside or that the nightmares will stop. I will always be wounded that this happenned to me. If someone cuts your arm off do you just get help and go on? Doesnt it always hurt deep down that the arm is gone? Do you ever wonder "gee what if I had that ol arm of mine?" Cause thats what it feels like, like he ripped my f*cking heart out and stomped on it. I have been given permission to feel the hurt for the first time in my life and now youre trying to take that from me? Stop hurting. Well ok then. You stop being depressed and I will stop hurting that the ass*ole raped me for god sake. Add this post to the list entitled "WHat never ever ever to say to an abuse victim" My god, allowing him to molest me? These words should have never come out in the same sentence. Do you have any idea how bad this hurts me? You just set me back a long ways……here I was feeling all strong and happy. Thanks for ripping it away. Thanks for bringing tears to my eyes and making me want to heave and vomit again. Im glad you are good at putting things behind you, but then I am not as emotionally superior as you are. Are you a normie or something? A person with a heart or soul would never say this. But then again, perhaps youve never been raped with a beer bottle huh? If I have taken this all wrong I apologize, I just think it was insensitive and inapprapriate to say this. Jennifer
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Dear Jennifer, How courageous of you. I’m so sorry about everything that happened…. Deciding to write all this stuff is truely amazing. You should be so proud of yourself. I am. (((((((((((((Jennifer)))))))))))) ~Ann
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The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5 years old. Five.
<snip There is little I can say at the moment. I wish could hold that little girl and mommy her in the way she deserves.
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I am not sure if this is appropriate or not but would it be fair for us to begin a separate thread in response to the Givvon post. Those of us who, after reading it, are struggling with some very powerful feelings from terror to hatred, and need a place to vent, without directing it to Givvon since I do not want to detract from her original message or complicate her emotions by having to deal with mine. Does this make sense?
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you are letting this man continue to molest you through your own anger.get the help you need so you can put this behind you
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{{{{{{{Jennifer}}}}}}} I have no words. Sending angels to comfort and guide. -deb In article < ,
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Warning: this post may get very explicit or it may be mellow. I may freak out or I may be fine. I may do alot of things in here tonight, but I need to. Thats the point. So no flaming, no bitchin or harpin and carpin. Dont read this if you have a problem with sexual abuse survivors speaking out and expressing anger Ok? ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^^^ ^^^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^ The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5 years old. Five. How can you look at a 5 yo little girl and want to do this? I will never know. His name is Donald James Low and his fathers name is Ralph Low, his moms name is Viola something or other. He has a wife named Cathy now. The Low family came from Montana. ( I say these things in case someone knows this animal or his father who is a child molester as well) Donald lives in the Valley area of Spokane Washington and is a registered sex offender in Spokane County. He was recently released from Geiger Correctional Center. He is tall and fat with short brown hair and blue eyes. Cathy and him have 2 little girls, can you believe this?? He had children after me??!! My mom met him when I was 5 and he started right in on me. They married and I sat there with my secret knowing what he would do to me. He and my mother had a baby girl , my sister who is now 16.The sad part is that I loved him like my daddy cause I never had one while I was little. I felt betrayed and confused when this began but I knew it was a secret. A bad bad secret. Saturday morning, I came down to watch cartoons and he was sleeping on the couch. I curled up next to him on the sofa and turned on the tv. Oh, I was just a baby wanting to watch cartoons that morning, and my life changed forever. He pretended he was sleeping when he started and called me by my mothers name of all things. Pulled off my little panties with the flowers, pink flowers. There it all began. The seed was planted. He got away with it and I never let on to the fact that I knew he was awake. I saw him looking. At first it was just touching and feeling and petting. Just being ever so innocent and secret. I knew this was bad though, very bad, but I didnt know what it was….I was so confused. Then came oral sex. He would force me to touch his penis and watch him masturbate over the toilet. He wanted me to touch his semen and I did. I didnt know what else to do. Then he started performing oral sex on me whenever he felt like it. He did these things right under my moms nose. Shed be sleeping on the couch and he’d reach over and do it. Shed go to the store and hed take me in the bedroom. One night he took me to a park and I remember trying to convince him that the sprinklers would hit our car if he parked. Anything my 6 year old mind could think to save myself. It was dark and I could hear the sprinklers tick tick ticking. I shattered that night, splintered off into someone else. I got lost in a crack in the window and I dont know if I ever really came back. I can still smell the alcohol and cigarettes on his breath and feel his probing hands. He ripped my panties and theygot lost in the car somewhere. The sick part is that I think my mom should have known. How can you not know when your 5 yo screams and cries when you leave her with the animal?? I dont get it mom. Didnt you see the behavioral changes, bed wetting, temper tantrums, moodiness? I was a classic case for god sake Of course he said I couldnt tell cause mom would be mad, shed be jealous and hurt he said. Me being so young and niave, believed him. Dont want to hurt mom at all now do we? No daddy, we dont. Its ok daddy, I wont tell. Promise. I promise daddy I wont tell. Well good cause then I might have to hurt you too, might have to kill your mom and all. Ok daddy I wont I promise, dont tell mommy the secret and dont hurt her ok? Good girl, now lay down you little whore. You are my free little prostitute, all I want for free. You like this dont you?? Tell me you like it alot. And I did. I told the sick bastrd I liked it. He later used it in court, said I wanted it to happen too. That sick fuck used objects and fingers on me. He used my moms dildo on me. I think now he didnt want to get it for rape so he never penetrated me with his penis, always something else. A damn dildo for god sake, my own mothers. Then he went home and used it on her, he told me about it the next day. He sodomized me with that fucking thing. And anything else he thought would get him off. He would talk about watching me naked in the shower when mom was out of the room. Hed reach over and cop a feel when she looked away. This went on til I was 11 years old. For 6 years this bastard violated me every way possible without using his penis. Prolly feared physical evidence such as semen as well I can only speculate. I layed down and took it like a big girl. When I finally told mom she was horrified. But….get this……stayed with him foe another year!!! Slept with him after I told her what he did to me. He knew I told and she threatned to turn him in if he did it again, so he stopped. But went right on fucking my mother anyways. She let him, that fucking whore fucked him after he did this to me. Course now she says sorry and all. Oh the medication and the therapy, it all is so insignificant compared to what he took from me. He took my life away from me. Then went on his merry way. Sure he did some time in prison but he got more than his original sentence for being caught around kids again! In total he did 10 years and only a few months were related directly to what he did to me. The rest he did for getting caught living with his wife and 2 girls. Yes, he has 2 girls. A convicted child rapist can still father children, he just cant live with them anymore. He got 10 years of free counseling, a roof over his head and all the help he needed. I got nothing but a broken hymen and a life of grief and misery. Nothing but sexual dysfunction and vomiting. Nothing, I am nothing compared to what he did. I am still lost in the crack in the windshield that night. Forever shattered in a million splintering pieces jabbed into my five year old heart. Two hands feel like 20 when your 5, 10, 15, 25. Those two hands are forever molestng me no matter where I go you sick fuck!! I run from you but your in my sleep. My bloody dreams where you die and I kill you dead over and over and over you fuck. I need so much fucking medication I am sick from it. I hope someone here knows you you fucking pervert theif, or your dad Ralph, the beginner of it all. Or your brother Clint. You bastard fuck I hate you. You sonofabitch child raper. You have no idea what I thnk about your funeral. I will jump up and down adn cry with joy and sing like a bird. I will break a bottle of bubbly over your casket and offer everyone drinks! Ill spit in your grave and then shit on you, better yet Ill pee in your mouth while you lay there cold watching from below while you rot in hell. God doesnt allow demons like you in heaven and I will be there waiting for you sick fuck I will always be waiting and watching for you. Waiting for you to die and suffer a long agonizing existence in hell. I cant wait until the day. The only way it could be better is if I could kill you myself. What pleasuer Id get from watching your blood run over on the ground like my soul did when you broke it. Exhausted, screaming, crying, hurt, feel like throwing up, but Im not done yet. I have more but I cant go on cause I can barely type now through the tears. I feel like I purged and I hope someone here knows you. Please tell me if you do, Id get a kick out of it for sure. Them knowing what an animal you are Donald James Low. DONALD JAMES LOW sick fucking child rapist. IT CAN BE RAPE< EVEN IF YOU DIDNT USE YOUR THING AND I NEVER SAID NO< I WAS ONLY 5 bastard. Jennifer
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Warning: this post may get very explicit or it may be mellow. I may freak out or I may be fine. I may do alot of things in here tonight, but I need to. Thats the point. So no flaming, no bitchin or harpin and carpin. Dont read this if you have a problem with sexual abuse survivors speaking out and expressing anger Ok? ^ ok ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^^^ ^^^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^ The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5 years old. Five. How can you look at a 5 yo little girl and want to do this? I will never know. His name is Donald James Low and his fathers name is Ralph Low, his moms name is Viola something or other. He has a wife named Cathy now. The Low family came from Montana. ( I say these things in case someone knows this animal or his father who is a child molester as well) Donald lives in the Valley area of Spokane Washington and is a registered sex offender in Spokane County. He was recently released from Geiger Correctional Center. He is tall and fat with short brown hair and blue eyes. Cathy and him have 2 little girls, can you believe this?? He had children after me??!!
<wouldnt post unless i snipped it) child rapist. IT CAN BE RAPE< EVEN IF YOU DIDNT USE YOUR THING AND I NEVER SAID NO< I WAS ONLY 5 bastard. Jennifer
Dear Jennifer, You are brave. This must have been difficult to write, let alone post. I admire your strength. Stay strong and brave and true. You will heal. I hope you find who went into the window crack and listen to what she says, accept her and become one with her. You survived and now you can heal.
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You are so brave And so strong You should be proud of yourself There are too many of us who never had the courage to put our abusers away I just hope that one day you will be able to put him behind you forever Pam Who was always too scared, and still is – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Warning: this post may get very explicit or it may be mellow. I may freak out or I may be fine. I may do alot of things in here tonight, but I need to. Thats the point. So no flaming, no bitchin or harpin and carpin. Dont read this if you have a problem with sexual abuse survivors speaking out and expressing anger Ok? ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^^^ ^^^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^ The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5 years old. Five. How can you look at a 5 yo little girl and want to do this? I will never know. His name is Donald James Low and his fathers name is Ralph Low, his moms name is Viola something or other. He has a wife named Cathy now. The Low family came from Montana. ( I say these things in case someone knows this animal or his father who is a child molester as well) Donald lives in the Valley area of Spokane Washington and is a registered sex offender in Spokane County. He was recently released from Geiger Correctional Center. He is tall and fat with short brown hair and blue eyes. Cathy and him have 2 little girls, can you believe this?? He had children after me??!! My mom met him when I was 5 and he started right in on me. They married and I sat there with my secret knowing what he would do to me. He and my mother had a baby girl , my sister who is now 16.The sad part is that I loved him like my daddy cause I never had one while I was little. I felt betrayed and confused when this began but I knew it was a secret. A bad bad secret. Saturday morning, I came down to watch cartoons and he was sleeping on the couch. I curled up next to him on the sofa and turned on the tv. Oh, I was just a baby wanting to watch cartoons that morning, and my life changed forever. He pretended he was sleeping when he started and called me by my mothers name of all things. Pulled off my little panties with the flowers, pink flowers. There it all began. The seed was planted. He got away with it and I never let on to the fact that I knew he was awake. I saw him looking. At first it was just touching and feeling and petting. Just being ever so innocent and secret. I knew this was bad though, very bad, but I didnt know what it was….I was so confused. Then came oral sex. He would force me to touch his penis and watch him masturbate over the toilet. He wanted me to touch his semen and I did. I didnt know what else to do. Then he started performing oral sex on me whenever he felt like it. He did these things right under my moms nose. Shed be sleeping on the couch and he’d reach over and do it. Shed go to the store and hed take me in the bedroom. One night he took me to a park and I remember trying to convince him that the sprinklers would hit our car if he parked. Anything my 6 year old mind could think to save myself. It was dark and I could hear the sprinklers tick tick ticking. I shattered that night, splintered off into someone else. I got lost in a crack in the window and I dont know if I ever really came back. I can still smell the alcohol and cigarettes on his breath and feel his probing hands. He ripped my panties and theygot lost in the car somewhere. The sick part is that I think my mom should have known. How can you not know when your 5 yo screams and cries when you leave her with the animal?? I dont get it mom. Didnt you see the behavioral changes, bed wetting, temper tantrums, moodiness? I was a classic case for god sake Of course he said I couldnt tell cause mom would be mad, shed be jealous and hurt he said. Me being so young and niave, believed him. Dont want to hurt mom at all now do we? No daddy, we dont. Its ok daddy, I wont tell. Promise. I promise daddy I wont tell. Well good cause then I might have to hurt you too, might have to kill your mom and all. Ok daddy I wont I promise, dont tell mommy the secret and dont hurt her ok? Good girl, now lay down you little whore. You are my free little prostitute, all I want for free. You like this dont you?? Tell me you like it alot. And I did. I told the sick bastrd I liked it. He later used it in court, said I wanted it to happen too. That sick fuck used objects and fingers on me. He used my moms dildo on me. I think now he didnt want to get it for rape so he never penetrated me with his penis, always something else. A damn dildo for god sake, my own mothers. Then he went home and used it on her, he told me about it the next day. He sodomized me with that fucking thing. And anything else he thought would get him off. He would talk about watching me naked in the shower when mom was out of the room. Hed reach over and cop a feel when she looked away. This went on til I was 11 years old. For 6 years this bastard violated me every way possible without using his penis. Prolly feared physical evidence such as semen as well I can only speculate. I layed down and took it like a big girl. When I finally told mom she was horrified. But….get this……stayed with him foe another year!!! Slept with him after I told her what he did to me. He knew I told and she threatned to turn him in if he did it again, so he stopped. But went right on fucking my mother anyways. She let him, that fucking whore fucked him after he did this to me. Course now she says sorry and all. Oh the medication and the therapy, it all is so insignificant compared to what he took from me. He took my life away from me. Then went on his merry way. Sure he did some time in prison but he got more than his original sentence for being caught around kids again! In total he did 10 years and only a few months were related directly to what he did to me. The rest he did for getting caught living with his wife and 2 girls. Yes, he has 2 girls. A convicted child rapist can still father children, he just cant live with them anymore. He got 10 years of free counseling, a roof over his head and all the help he needed. I got nothing but a broken hymen and a life of grief and misery. Nothing but sexual dysfunction and vomiting. Nothing, I am nothing compared to what he did. I am still lost in the crack in the windshield that night. Forever shattered in a million splintering pieces jabbed into my five year old heart. Two hands feel like 20 when your 5, 10, 15, 25. Those two hands are forever molestng me no matter where I go you sick fuck!! I run from you but your in my sleep. My bloody dreams where you die and I kill you dead over and over and over you fuck. I need so much fucking medication I am sick from it. I hope someone here knows you you fucking pervert theif, or your dad Ralph, the beginner of it all. Or your brother Clint. You bastard fuck I hate you. You sonofabitch child raper. You have no idea what I thnk about your funeral. I will jump up and down adn cry with joy and sing like a bird. I will break a bottle of bubbly over your casket and offer everyone drinks! Ill spit in your grave and then shit on you, better yet Ill pee in your mouth while you lay there cold watching from below while you rot in hell. God doesnt allow demons like you in heaven and I will be there waiting for you sick fuck I will always be waiting and watching for you. Waiting for you to die and suffer a long agonizing existence in hell. I cant wait until the day. The only way it could be better is if I could kill you myself. What pleasuer Id get from watching your blood run over on the ground like my soul did when you broke it. Exhausted, screaming, crying, hurt, feel like throwing up, but Im not done yet. I have more but I cant go on cause I can barely type now through the tears. I feel like I purged and I hope someone here knows you. Please tell me if you do, Id get a kick out of it for sure. Them knowing what an animal you are Donald James Low. DONALD JAMES LOW sick fucking child rapist. IT CAN BE RAPE< EVEN IF YOU DIDNT USE YOUR THING AND I NEVER SAID NO< I WAS ONLY 5 bastard. Jennifer
Response:
Warning: this post may get very explicit or it may be mellow. I may freak out or I may be fine. I may do alot of things in here tonight, but I need to. Thats the point. So no flaming, no bitchin or harpin and carpin. Dont read this if you have a problem with sexual abuse survivors speaking out and expressing anger Ok? ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^^^ ^^^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^ The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5 years old. Five. How can you look at a 5 yo little girl and want to do this? I will never know. His name is Donald James Low and his fathers name is Ralph Low, his moms name is Viola something or other. He has a wife named Cathy now. The Low family came from Montana. ( I say these things in case someone knows this animal or his father who is a child molester as well) Donald lives in the Valley area of Spokane Washington and is a registered sex offender in Spokane County. He was recently released from Geiger Correctional Center. He is tall and fat with short brown hair and blue eyes. Cathy and him have 2 little girls, can you believe this?? He had children after me??!! My mom met him when I was 5 and he started right in on me. They married and I sat there with my secret knowing what he would do to me. He and my mother had a baby girl , my sister who is now 16.The sad part is that I loved him like my daddy cause I never had one while I was little. I felt betrayed and confused when this began but I knew it was a secret. A bad bad secret. Saturday morning, I came down to watch cartoons and he was sleeping on the couch. I curled up next to him on the sofa and turned on the tv. Oh, I was just a baby wanting to watch cartoons that morning, and my life changed forever. He pretended he was sleeping when he started and called me by my mothers name of all things. Pulled off my little panties with the flowers, pink flowers. There it all began. The seed was planted. He got away with it and I never let on to the fact that I knew he was awake. I saw him looking. At first it was just touching and feeling and petting. Just being ever so innocent and secret. I knew this was bad though, very bad, but I didnt know what it was….I was so confused. Then came oral sex. He would force me to touch his penis and watch him masturbate over the toilet. He wanted me to touch his semen and I did. I didnt know what else to do. Then he started performing oral sex on me whenever he felt like it. He did these things right under my moms nose. Shed be sleeping on the couch and he’d reach over and do it. Shed go to the store and hed take me in the bedroom. One night he took me to a park and I remember trying to convince him that the sprinklers would hit our car if he parked. Anything my 6 year old mind could think to save myself. It was dark and I could hear the sprinklers tick tick ticking. I shattered that night, splintered off into someone else. I got lost in a crack in the window and I dont know if I ever really came back. I can still smell the alcohol and cigarettes on his breath and feel his probing hands. He ripped my panties and theygot lost in the car somewhere. The sick part is that I think my mom should have known. How can you not know when your 5 yo screams and cries when you leave her with the animal?? I dont get it mom. Didnt you see the behavioral changes, bed wetting, temper tantrums, moodiness? I was a classic case for god sake Of course he said I couldnt tell cause mom would be mad, shed be jealous and hurt he said. Me being so young and niave, believed him. Dont want to hurt mom at all now do we? No daddy, we dont. Its ok daddy, I wont tell. Promise. I promise daddy I wont tell. Well good cause then I might have to hurt you too, might have to kill your mom and all. Ok daddy I wont I promise, dont tell mommy the secret and dont hurt her ok? Good girl, now lay down you little whore. You are my free little prostitute, all I want for free. You like this dont you?? Tell me you like it alot. And I did. I told the sick bastrd I liked it. He later used it in court, said I wanted it to happen too. That sick fuck used objects and fingers on me. He used my moms dildo on me. I think now he didnt want to get it for rape so he never penetrated me with his penis, always something else. A damn dildo for god sake, my own mothers. Then he went home and used it on her, he told me about it the next day. He sodomized me with that fucking thing. And anything else he thought would get him off. He would talk about watching me naked in the shower when mom was out of the room. Hed reach over and cop a feel when she looked away. This went on til I was 11 years old. For 6 years this bastard violated me every way possible without using his penis. Prolly feared physical evidence such as semen as well I can only speculate. I layed down and took it like a big girl. When I finally told mom she was horrified. But….get this……stayed with him foe another year!!! Slept with him after I told her what he did to me. He knew I told and she threatned to turn him in if he did it again, so he stopped. But went right on fucking my mother anyways. She let him, that fucking whore fucked him after he did this to me. Course now she says sorry and all. Oh the medication and the therapy, it all is so insignificant compared to what he took from me. He took my life away from me. Then went on his merry way. Sure he did some time in prison but he got more than his original sentence for being caught around kids again! In total he did 10 years and only a few months were related directly to what he did to me. The rest he did for getting caught living with his wife and 2 girls. Yes, he has 2 girls. A convicted child rapist can still father children, he just cant live with them anymore. He got 10 years of free counseling, a roof over his head and all the help he needed. I got nothing but a broken hymen and a life of grief and misery. Nothing but sexual dysfunction and vomiting. Nothing, I am nothing compared to what he did. I am still lost in the crack in the windshield that night. Forever shattered in a million splintering pieces jabbed into my five year old heart. Two hands feel like 20 when your 5, 10, 15, 25. Those two hands are forever molestng me no matter where I go you sick fuck!! I run from you but your in my sleep. My bloody dreams where you die and I kill you dead over and over and over you fuck. I need so much fucking medication I am sick from it. I hope someone here knows you you fucking pervert theif, or your dad Ralph, the beginner of it all. Or your brother Clint. You bastard fuck I hate you. You sonofabitch child raper. You have no idea what I thnk about your funeral. I will jump up and down adn cry with joy and sing like a bird. I will break a bottle of bubbly over your casket and offer everyone drinks! Ill spit in your grave and then shit on you, better yet Ill pee in your mouth while you lay there cold watching from below while you rot in hell. God doesnt allow demons like you in heaven and I will be there waiting for you sick fuck I will always be waiting and watching for you. Waiting for you to die and suffer a long agonizing existence in hell. I cant wait until the day. The only way it could be better is if I could kill you myself. What pleasuer Id get from watching your blood run over on the ground like my soul did when you broke it. Exhausted, screaming, crying, hurt, feel like throwing up, but Im not done yet. I have more but I cant go on cause I can barely type now through the tears. I feel like I purged and I hope someone here knows you. Please tell me if you do, Id get a kick out of it for sure. Them knowing what an animal you are Donald James Low. DONALD JAMES LOW sick fucking child rapist. IT CAN BE RAPE< EVEN IF YOU DIDNT USE YOUR THING AND I NEVER SAID NO< I WAS ONLY 5 bastard. Jennifer
Response:
- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Warning: this post may get very explicit or it may be mellow. I may freak out or I may be fine. I may do alot of things in here tonight, but I need to. Thats the point. So no flaming, no bitchin or harpin and carpin. Dont read this if you have a problem with sexual abuse survivors speaking out and expressing anger Ok? ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^^^ ^^^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^ The first time he put his slimy hands on me I was 5 years old. Five. How can you look at a 5 yo little girl and want to do this? I will never know. His name is Donald James Low and his fathers name is Ralph Low, his moms name is Viola something or other. He has a wife named Cathy now. The Low family came from Montana. ( I say these things in case someone knows this animal or his father who is a child molester as well) Donald lives in the Valley area of Spokane Washington and is a registered sex offender in Spokane County. He was recently released from Geiger Correctional Center. He is tall and fat with short brown hair and blue eyes. Cathy and him have 2 little girls, can you believe this?? He had children after me??!! My mom met him when I was 5 and he started right in on me. They married and I sat there with my secret knowing what he would do to me. He and my mother had a baby girl , my sister who is now 16.The sad part is that I loved him like my daddy cause I never had one while I was little. I felt betrayed and confused when this began but I knew it was a secret. A bad bad secret. Saturday morning, I came down to watch cartoons and he was sleeping on the couch. I curled up next to him on the sofa and turned on the tv. Oh, I was just a baby wanting to watch cartoons that morning, and my life changed forever. He pretended he was sleeping when he started and called me by my mothers name of all things. Pulled off my little panties with the flowers, pink flowers. There it all began. The seed was planted. He got away with it and I never let on to the fact that I knew he was awake. I saw him looking. At first it was just touching and feeling and petting. Just being ever so innocent and secret. I knew this was bad though, very bad, but I didnt know what it was….I was so confused. Then came oral sex. He would force me to touch his penis and watch him masturbate over the toilet. He wanted me to touch his semen and I did. I didnt know what else to do. Then he started performing oral sex on me whenever he felt like it. He did these things right under my moms nose. Shed be sleeping on the couch and he’d reach over and do it. Shed go to the store and hed take me in the bedroom. One night he took me to a park and I remember trying to convince him that the sprinklers would hit our car if he parked. Anything my 6 year old mind could think to save myself. It was dark and I could hear the sprinklers tick tick ticking. I shattered that night, splintered off into someone else. I got lost in a crack in the window and I dont know if I ever really came back. I can still smell the alcohol and cigarettes on his breath and feel his probing hands. He ripped my panties and theygot lost in the car somewhere. The sick part is that I think my mom should have known. How can you not know when your 5 yo screams and cries when you leave her with the animal?? I dont get it mom. Didnt you see the behavioral changes, bed wetting, temper tantrums, moodiness? I was a classic case for god sake Of course he said I couldnt tell cause mom would be mad, shed be jealous and hurt he said. Me being so young and niave, believed him. Dont want to hurt mom at all now do we? No daddy, we dont. Its ok daddy, I wont tell. Promise. I promise daddy I wont tell. Well good cause then I might have to hurt you too, might have to kill your mom and all. Ok daddy I wont I promise, dont tell mommy the secret and dont hurt her ok? Good girl, now lay down you little whore. You are my free little prostitute, all I want for free. You like this dont you?? Tell me you like it alot. And I did. I told the sick bastrd I liked it. He later used it in court, said I wanted it to happen too. That sick fuck used objects and fingers on me. He used my moms dildo on me. I think now he didnt want to get it for rape so he never penetrated me with his penis, always something else. A damn dildo for god sake, my own mothers. Then he went home and used it on her, he told me about it the next day. He sodomized me with that fucking thing. And anything else he thought would get him off. He would talk about watching me naked in the shower when mom was out of the room. Hed reach over and cop a feel when she looked away. This went on til I was 11 years old. For 6 years this bastard violated me every way possible without using his penis. Prolly feared physical evidence such as semen as well I can only speculate. I layed down and took it like a big girl. When I finally told mom she was horrified. But….get this……stayed with him foe another year!!! Slept with him after I told her what he did to me. He knew I told and she threatned to turn him in if he did it again, so he stopped. But went right on fucking my mother anyways. She let him, that fucking whore fucked him after he did this to me. Course now she says sorry and all. Oh the medication and the therapy, it all is so insignificant compared to what he took from me. He took my life away from me. Then went on his merry way. Sure he did some time in prison but he got more than his original sentence for being caught around kids again! In total he did 10 years and only a few months were related directly to what he did to me. The rest he did for getting caught living with his wife and 2 girls. Yes, he has 2 girls. A convicted child rapist can still father children, he just cant live with them anymore. He got 10 years of free counseling, a roof over his head and all the help he needed. I got nothing but a broken hymen and a life of grief and misery. Nothing but sexual dysfunction and vomiting. Nothing, I am nothing compared to what he did. I am still lost in the crack in the windshield that night. Forever shattered in a million splintering pieces jabbed into my five year old heart. Two hands feel like 20 when your 5, 10, 15, 25. Those two hands are forever molestng me no matter where I go you sick fuck!! I run from you but your in my sleep. My bloody dreams where you die and I kill you dead over and over and over you fuck. I need so much fucking medication I am sick from it. I hope someone here knows you you fucking pervert theif, or your dad Ralph, the beginner of it all. Or your brother Clint. You bastard fuck I hate you. You sonofabitch child raper. You have no idea what I thnk about your funeral. I will jump up and down adn cry with joy and sing like a bird. I will break a bottle of bubbly over your casket and offer everyone drinks! Ill spit in your grave and then shit on you, better yet Ill pee in your mouth while you lay there cold watching from below while you rot in hell. God doesnt allow demons like you in heaven and I will be there waiting for you sick fuck I will always be waiting and watching for you. Waiting for you to die and suffer a long agonizing existence in hell. I cant wait until the day. The only way it could be better is if I could kill you myself. What pleasuer Id get from watching your blood run over on the ground like my soul did when you broke it. Exhausted, screaming, crying, hurt, feel like throwing up, but Im not done yet. I have more but I cant go on cause I can barely type now through the tears. I feel like I purged and I hope someone here knows you. Please tell me if you do, Id get a kick out of it for sure. Them knowing what an animal you are Donald James Low. DONALD JAMES LOW sick fucking child rapist. IT CAN BE RAPE< EVEN IF YOU DIDNT USE YOUR THING AND I NEVER SAID NO< I WAS ONLY 5 bastard. Jennifer
Oh Jennifer, You are so strong to cry out your pain and anger. As I read this post, I wanted to find that little girl in the shattered glass and hold her in my lap and rock her and keep the demons away. (((((((((((((((((((((((Jennifer))))))))))))))))))))) Robin PS: I live in Mukilteo. If you want to meet for coffee or a walk in the park, just let me know. Or we could get drunk and play in the lake at midnight. :)
