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Hey comrades, long time no speak. Well ia m still around and was doing real good until about 3 days ago when insomnia struck again:( I mean i am having a really lite sleep instead of deep ones and that makes me worry. Now to top it off i think ia m losing a freind and that is scaring me so it is adding to teh insomnia. I am just scared of ending back in relapse again, you know? The funny thing is is that i feel sleepy but i insist on worrying about the sleep so i dont. crazy huh? i hope that everyone is hangin in there. i read here a lot , it is because of you guys that i am still sane:) thanx I just fear another rough episode coming on. have people here made it through several relapses and survived?
Dear G, Why don`t you talk to the friend you fear you are losing and ask him point blank. Sometimes not knowing and assuming the worst, escalates our anxiety. There is also a chance that he/she will tell you that the friendship is okay. This worry might be causing you to sleep lousy. I have made it through quite a few relapses, if I god forbid have another relapse, I will make it through again and again 
) Jackie ~*~There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other~*~
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Hey comrades, long time no speak. Well ia m still around and was doing real good until about 3 days ago when insomnia struck again:( I mean i am having a really lite sleep instead of deep ones and that makes me worry. Now to top it off i think ia m losing a freind and that is scaring me so it is adding to teh insomnia. I am just scared of ending back in relapse again, you know? The funny thing is is that i feel sleepy but i insist on worrying about the sleep so i dont. crazy huh? i hope that everyone is hangin in there. i read here a lot , it is because of you guys that i am still sane:) thanx I just fear another rough episode coming on. have people here made it through several relapses and survived? G
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Yes, some how, some way we do make it though relapses. Of course, some are a little worse than others…take it one day at a time and it doesn’t seem so overwhelming… smiles, elise
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey comrades, long time no speak. Well ia m still around and was doing real good until about 3 days ago when insomnia struck again:( I mean i am having a really lite sleep instead of deep ones and that makes me worry. Now to top it off i think ia m losing a freind and that is scaring me so it is adding to teh insomnia. I am just scared of ending back in relapse again, you know? The funny thing is is that i feel sleepy but i insist on worrying about the sleep so i dont. crazy huh? i hope that everyone is hangin in there. i read here a lot , it is because of you guys that i am still sane:) thanx I just fear another rough episode coming on. have people here made it through several relapses and survived? G
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whats up to everyone and happy new year!!! We are having a snow storm here in new york and teh snow is falling like there is no tomorrow it looks kind of nice actually until oyu get out in it. I am lucky ia m off LOL I was doing ok for the last 3 nights getting sleep and feeling rested and i loved it!!! and tehn boom last nite came. I have a sinus infectkion and it is driving me crazy so i took some meds for it, started to feel foggy and scared and then could not sleep. I waas afraid to let go and sleep. I felt sleepy and all but just started thinking about being alone and got more scared and finally could not let go and fall alseep. So i ahve been awake all nite blowing my nose and being scared. When i get like this i am so suggestible and confused and think i will never sleep again. Oh well thanx for listening, your support and positive feed back help so much. It is because of this board taht i am making it, i swear. Well time to start shoveling! G
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – whats up to everyone and happy new year!!! We are having a snow storm here in new york and teh snow is falling like there is no tomorrow it looks kind of nice actually until oyu get out in it. I am lucky ia m off LOL I was doing ok for the last 3 nights getting sleep and feeling rested and i loved it!!! and tehn boom last nite came. I have a sinus infectkion and it is driving me crazy so i took some meds for it, started to feel foggy and scared and then could not sleep. I waas afraid to let go and sleep. I felt sleepy and all but just started thinking about being alone and got more scared and finally could not let go and fall alseep. So i ahve been awake all nite blowing my nose and being scared. When i get like this i am so suggestible and confused and think i will never sleep again. Oh well thanx for listening, your support and positive feed back help so much. It is because of this board taht i am making it, i swear. Well time to start shoveling! G
Tho you had no good sleep last night you sound *good* Try to remember the good nights sleep when you cannot sleep. It will make you more confident.:) It is very bad weather in parts off US huh? I saw it on telly. Some places actually cut off from the world. Well start shoveling me boy,but put on your knittens Kiss Anna
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – whats up to everyone and happy new year!!! We are having a snow storm here in new york and teh snow is falling like there is no tomorrow it looks kind of nice actually until oyu get out in it. I am lucky ia m off LOL I was doing ok for the last 3 nights getting sleep and feeling rested and i loved it!!! and tehn boom last nite came. I have a sinus infectkion and it is driving me crazy so i took some meds for it, started to feel foggy and scared and then could not sleep. I waas afraid to let go and sleep. I felt sleepy and all but just started thinking about being alone and got more scared and finally could not let go and fall alseep. So i ahve been awake all nite blowing my nose and being scared. When i get like this i am so suggestible and confused and think i will never sleep again. Oh well thanx for listening, your support and positive feed back help so much. It is because of this board taht i am making it, i swear. Well time to start shoveling!
Hi, G…… highs here in Georgia today are supposed to be in the low 30’s…… and that’s *plenty* cold for me!! I don’t think I could handle all that snow being dumped on me…… and all the cold…… brrrrrrrr…… I am a warm-weather person. Sorry you have been having problems with the sleep again…… but, as you said, at least you are off work. Did your mother return from her trip yet? Good thing you started early on the meds ……. I seem to have chronic sinus/allergy problems….. and I hate being stuffed up and feeling like I can’t breathe. Hopefully, you’ll be able to relax about the meds making you drowsy……. and hey, a nice nap in the daytime isn’t bad either…… ) Forgive me for living in the South where we have little snow and asking this probably obvious question……. but…… why start shoveling if it’s all just going to be covered over again with more snow. How about buying a flame thrower and just melting it all away….. hehe? Take care….. MikeH
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Where in NY are you? We were supposed to get a foot of snow and it looks like barely an inch to me! – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – whats up to everyone and happy new year!!! We are having a snow storm here in new york and teh snow is falling like there is no tomorrow it looks kind of nice actually until oyu get out in it. I am lucky ia m off LOL I was doing ok for the last 3 nights getting sleep and feeling rested and i loved it!!! and tehn boom last nite came. I have a sinus infectkion and it is driving me crazy so i took some meds for it, started to feel foggy and scared and then could not sleep. I waas afraid to let go and sleep. I felt sleepy and all but just started thinking about being alone and got more scared and finally could not let go and fall alseep. So i ahve been awake all nite blowing my nose and being scared. When i get like this i am so suggestible and confused and think i will never sleep again. Oh well thanx for listening, your support and positive feed back help so much. It is because of this board taht i am making it, i swear. Well time to start shoveling! G
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Hi G, So happy that you got some sleep! Three nights worth must have been a big help! You will sleep again, G. Hang in there! Take care, Liz – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – whats up to everyone and happy new year!!! We are having a snow storm here in new york and teh snow is falling like there is no tomorrow it looks kind of nice actually until oyu get out in it. I am lucky ia m off LOL I was doing ok for the last 3 nights getting sleep and feeling rested and i loved it!!! and tehn boom last nite came. I have a sinus infectkion and it is driving me crazy so i took some meds for it, started to feel foggy and scared and then could not sleep. I waas afraid to let go and sleep. I felt sleepy and all but just started thinking about being alone and got more scared and finally could not let go and fall alseep. So i ahve been awake all nite blowing my nose and being scared. When i get like this i am so suggestible and confused and think i will never sleep again. Oh well thanx for listening, your support and positive feed back help so much. It is because of this board taht i am making it, i swear. Well time to start shoveling! G
– Snowmen are blessings that fall from heaven unassembled…..
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You kdding, we are buried here! I am in Brooklyn
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G, Hope you have an anxiety-free and great day!!! I always have problems with sleeping after I have been off work for a period of time such as vacation,Christmas break, Easter break – hard to get the anxiety down at these times but have made each time so far. But it would be easier to do it without all of this anxiety.. smiles, elise
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well it is 12 30 in the morn and i am still up and have work tomorrow. ia m not as freaked out about it as i am sometimes. i know i will b tired and i hate that. This si what i mean about being normal. normal people have sleepless nites every once and awhile where ia m alwyas fighting with this. I am going as a part time gig as a mentor to students at my school and i am scared about teh interview and all that. it is soemthing new and that scares me. i read this as not normal. My fear of sleep is coming back again, it does that every once and a while. it seems like fears are cyclic, am i right? anyway hopefully will get soem sleep soon. thanx for listening
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Well ia m still here and managing ok. I ahve some bad nites but for teh most i am sleeping. you guys know what a big deal that is for me:) I am trying to keep saying that i am normal and that i will recover but it is hard. how can i feel normal with this thing. i mean sometimes i get scared over routine things that everyone else in teh world takes for granted. i think weird thoughts that i believe no one thinks. ia m trying to accept this but i am finding it hard. I hate this shit!!!!! I hate not being perfectly normal! I see other guys on my job and they are all norm,al and handling life fine and here ia m trying not to fall apart. every time i see something on t.v about mental illness i think that is me i think i must be nuts and it scares me. well thats all for now and guys..thanx for listening G
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well ia m still here and managing ok. I ahve some bad nites but for teh most i am sleeping. you guys know what a big deal that is for me:) I am trying to keep saying that i am normal and that i will recover but it is hard. how can i feel normal with this thing. i mean sometimes i get scared over routine things that everyone else in teh world takes for granted. i think weird thoughts that i believe no one thinks. ia m trying to accept this but i am finding it hard. I hate this shit!!!!! I hate not being perfectly normal! I see other guys on my job and they are all norm,al and handling life fine and here ia m trying not to fall apart. every time i see something on t.v about mental illness i think that is me i think i must be nuts and it scares me. well thats all for now and guys..thanx for listening G
Hya g Allways nice to hear from you. And no I did not know sleep was *a big deal* to you ( haha) Dear G what in earthsname is *normal* ? I know a lot of people and can tell you from my experience that some of the most normal people I know are here in this group,including a person called G With love Anna
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Hi G! Sounds like you are in the process of learning to cope, and have your good times and your bad times. Yes, you are right. Once we get past the "Why me?" type of questions, and get into solutions about how we can cope, we do tend to feel better on most days. You are not nuts, G. You know who you are and where you are going. You just have an anxiety condition that has had impact on your life and you are working on figuring out how to deal with it. So glad you are sleeping! Take care, Liz – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well ia m still here and managing ok. I ahve some bad nites but for teh most i am sleeping. you guys know what a big deal that is for me:) I am trying to keep saying that i am normal and that i will recover but it is hard. how can i feel normal with this thing. i mean sometimes i get scared over routine things that everyone else in teh world takes for granted. i think weird thoughts that i believe no one thinks. ia m trying to accept this but i am finding it hard. I hate this shit!!!!! I hate not being perfectly normal! I see other guys on my job and they are all norm,al and handling life fine and here ia m trying not to fall apart. every time i see something on t.v about mental illness i think that is me i think i must be nuts and it scares me. well thats all for now and guys..thanx for listening G
– Problems are only opportunities in work clothes. –Henry Kaiser
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Well it is 12 30 in the morn and i am still up and have work tomorrow. ia m not as freaked out about it as i am sometimes. i know i will b tired and i hate that. This si what i mean about being normal. normal people have sleepless nites every once and awhile where ia m alwyas fighting with this. I am going as a part time gig as a mentor to students at my school and i am scared about teh interview and all that. it is soemthing new and that scares me. i read this as not normal. My fear of sleep is coming back again, it does that every once and a while. it seems like fears are cyclic, am i right? anyway hopefully will get soem sleep soon. thanx for listening
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You are right, G. We have peaceful times, then the fears come back for a bit, but if we can keep from fearing the fears, they go away again. Hope you have a peaceful day tomorrow, and sleep well tomorrow night. Take care, Liz – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well it is 12 30 in the morn and i am still up and have work tomorrow. ia m not as freaked out about it as i am sometimes. i know i will b tired and i hate that. This si what i mean about being normal. normal people have sleepless nites every once and awhile where ia m alwyas fighting with this. I am going as a part time gig as a mentor to students at my school and i am scared about teh interview and all that. it is soemthing new and that scares me. i read this as not normal. My fear of sleep is coming back again, it does that every once and a while. it seems like fears are cyclic, am i right? anyway hopefully will get soem sleep soon. thanx for listening
– Problems are only opportunities in work clothes. –Henry Kaiser
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Whats up guys? how is everyone? I hope we are all hangin in there and taht your holiday was good, mine was not bad at all. As you can see i am up again tonite:( it seems that i can only sleep sometimes when i am real tired, but i think it is more than that. I have a craving tonite for something sweet and my mind feels watery. Guys is it possible that i will snap due to lack of sleep. I am getting a cold and my legs are sore as hell from lack of sleep? That is what i am most scared of. I am still taking my Luvox, every second nite because of teh side effects u know. I will talk to doc on thursday about something else. man when i get sleep i feel so much better u knwo, but then another bad nite comes and boomliek shit again. well i am trying u know, but shit is so unfair just when i start making soem kind of headway even teh smallest , another bad nite comes:( It is not fair.
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G, ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) Sleep deprivation can cause a myriad of symptoms…it just depends on the person. So I would say that the way you are feeling physically is most certainly due to lack of sleep. Lack of sleep also depresses your immune system, so yes, you may very well be getting a cold. I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. I know it is terribly difficult to be so up and down like this. Even though you are unable to sleep, try as best you can to take GOOD care of yourself. I will keep you in my prayers. (((((((((G))))))))) Love, Katie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Whats up guys? how is everyone? I hope we are all hangin in there and taht your holiday was good, mine was not bad at all. As you can see i am up again tonite:( it seems that i can only sleep sometimes when i am real tired, but i think it is more than that. I have a craving tonite for something sweet and my mind feels watery. Guys is it possible that i will snap due to lack of sleep. I am getting a cold and my legs are sore as hell from lack of sleep? That is what i am most scared of. I am still taking my Luvox, every second nite because of teh side effects u know. I will talk to doc on thursday about something else. man when i get sleep i feel so much better u knwo, but then another bad nite comes and boomliek shit again. well i am trying u know, but shit is so unfair just when i start making soem kind of headway even teh smallest , another bad nite comes:( It is not fair.
Before you buy.
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Whats up guys? how is everyone? I hope we are all hangin in there and taht your holiday was good, mine was not bad at all. As you can see i am up again tonite:( it seems that i can only sleep sometimes when i am real tired, but i think it is more than that. I have a craving tonite for something sweet and my mind feels watery. Guys is it possible that i will snap due to lack of sleep. I am getting a cold and my legs are sore as hell from lack of sleep? That is what i am most scared of. I am still taking my Luvox, every second nite because of teh side effects u know. I will talk to doc on thursday about something else. man when i get sleep i feel so much better u knwo, but then another bad nite comes and boomliek shit again. well i am trying u know, but shit is so unfair just when i start making soem kind of headway even teh smallest , another bad nite comes:( It is not fair.
Dear G Be sure to have a good conversation with your doc. You will not *snap* due to not sleeping. I had this problems a long time and I never *snapped* But you get a low resistance to your PA and lack off sleep makes one more worried. During the time I could not sleep I would get a PA when going to bed,what was sure to make me not sleep 
I saw Liz’ letter and I agree totally,even if you cannot sleep try to rest Hang in there Kiss Anna
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Whats up guys? how is everyone? I hope we are all hangin in there and taht your holiday was good, mine was not bad at all. As you can see i am up again tonite:( it seems that i can only sleep sometimes when i am real tired, but i think it is more than that. I have a craving tonite for something sweet and my mind feels watery. Guys is it possible that i will snap due to lack of sleep. I am getting a cold and my legs are sore as hell from lack of sleep? That is what i am most scared of. I am still taking my Luvox, every second nite because of teh side effects u know. I will talk to doc on thursday about something else. man when i get sleep i feel so much better u knwo, but then another bad nite comes and boomliek shit again. well i am trying u know, but shit is so unfair just when i start making soem kind of headway even teh smallest , another bad nite comes:( It is not fair.
I get the feeling life is not fair at all!!! Im not sure if you can break from no sleep. I get in a rountine, I get lots of sleep and then each night I stay up later until I have stayed up all night then I start all over again:-) I do have less anxiety on less sleep. But definately no sleep is the pits! Hope you get your schedule straight soon! Charla Before you buy.
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On Thursday, make sure you have a complete talk with your doctor about how you are feeling without having enough sleep. Even if you can’t sleep, just let your body rest whenever you are able. Take good care of yourself! Liz – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Whats up guys? how is everyone? I hope we are all hangin in there and taht your holiday was good, mine was not bad at all. As you can see i am up again tonite:( it seems that i can only sleep sometimes when i am real tired, but i think it is more than that. I have a craving tonite for something sweet and my mind feels watery. Guys is it possible that i will snap due to lack of sleep. I am getting a cold and my legs are sore as hell from lack of sleep? That is what i am most scared of. I am still taking my Luvox, every second nite because of teh side effects u know. I will talk to doc on thursday about something else. man when i get sleep i feel so much better u knwo, but then another bad nite comes and boomliek shit again. well i am trying u know, but shit is so unfair just when i start making soem kind of headway even teh smallest , another bad nite comes:( It is not fair
– Friends are flowers in life’s garden.
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Sorry you are having these feelings of fear and not sleeping, G. You will not lose your mind. Anxiety just makes us seem like we will. It will pass. Take care, Liz – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I know that i will probably not lose my mind, i guess i am scared of getting real bad again u know? I know how much i fear not sleeping. I ahve gottne better i mean i can go 2 nites with poor sleep and not worry tomuch but when it goes to long i begin to worry so much. I feel liek i am so closer to losing my mind, i feel so shaky and nervous and just thinking that it could go on and on scares teh hell out of me. I am dealing with the fears though talking to people about it and trying to figure out how to deal u know? INtense emotions scare me so much. I mean ekmotions let us know we are alive but they scare me. On teh one hand i want them and on the other they scare me:( G
– There is always music amongst the trees in the garden but our minds must be very still to hear it. ASAP Gardening Site: http://www.chickadee.com/asapgardens
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Stay strong G. Facing our darkest moments can make us stronger and give us the faith in ourselves that we need. This too will pass, and you’ll see how strong you really are. Hang on and be good to yourself. I’m putting you on my prayer list. John – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I know that i will probably not lose my mind, i guess i am scared of getting real bad again u know? I know how much i fear not sleeping. I ahve gottne better i mean i can go 2 nites with poor sleep and not worry tomuch but when it goes to long i begin to worry so much. I feel liek i am so closer to losing my mind, i feel so shaky and nervous and just thinking that it could go on and on scares teh hell out of me. I am dealing with the fears though talking to people about it and trying to figure out how to deal u know? INtense emotions scare me so much. I mean ekmotions let us know we are alive but they scare me. On teh one hand i want them and on the other they scare me:( G
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G, Just want you to know you are in my prayers… Please hang in there – this too shall pass… smiles, elise
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I know that i will probably not lose my mind, i guess i am scared of getting real bad again u know? I know how much i fear not sleeping. I ahve gottne better i mean i can go 2 nites with poor sleep and not worry tomuch but when it goes to long i begin to worry so much. I feel liek i am so closer to losing my mind, i feel so shaky and nervous and just thinking that it could go on and on scares teh hell out of me. I am dealing with the fears though talking to people about it and trying to figure out how to deal u know? INtense emotions scare me so much. I mean ekmotions let us know we are alive but they scare me. On teh one hand i want them and on the other they scare me:( G
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I know that i will probably not lose my mind, i guess i am scared of getting real bad again u know? I know how much i fear not sleeping. I ahve gottne better i mean i can go 2 nites with poor sleep and not worry tomuch but when it goes to long i begin to worry so much. I feel liek i am so closer to losing my mind, i feel so shaky and nervous and just thinking that it could go on and on scares teh hell out of me. I am dealing with the fears though talking to people about it and trying to figure out how to deal u know? INtense emotions scare me so much. I mean ekmotions let us know we are alive but they scare me. On teh one hand i want them and on the other they scare me:(
Dear G, There is no "probablies" about it, you are "NOT" going to lose your mind due to lack of sleep. I know you feel lousy when you can`t sleep, it is uncomfortable, but not dangerous. I know you scared, I always felt that way too when I couldn`t sleep. Hoping you had a night full of sweet dreams. {{{{{G}}}}} Jackie ~*~My mind contains many good ideas, but it is not always
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I know that i will probably not lose my mind, i guess i am scared of getting real bad again u know? I know how much i fear not sleeping. I ahve gottne better i mean i can go 2 nites with poor sleep and not worry tomuch but when it goes to long i begin to worry so much. I feel liek i am so closer to losing my mind, i feel so shaky and nervous and just thinking that it could go on and on scares teh hell out of me. I am dealing with the fears though talking to people about it and trying to figure out how to deal u know? INtense emotions scare me so much. I mean ekmotions let us know we are alive but they scare me. On teh one hand i want them and on the other they scare me:( G
