Hi all, day 2
Question:
Hang in there Sasha. I really hope this works for you. Vicki – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi all I just wanted to thank everyone who answered to my post on appointment with new pdoc and trying to take pill. I read them all and had lots to say in reply but can not manage to reply to them all. It seems I am always having to do this. Those last two replies I started yesterday and just finished them. I cannot manage a short message for some reason. I have done it before, but I am thinking too much to do it now. I think I am unable to filter through my thoughts and get down to the point I am trying to make. I just write in stream of consciousness and write down whatever I think. Sometimes I think I should go back and revise the post but then I just start getting confused. I guess I should just write thanks for your advice to everyone’s reply but it just seems wrong when I have so much more to say but then I never get around to saying it. I have this trouble when I talk to people. I try to filter through my thoughts to find the right thing to say but I just get confused. Maybe the meds might help with this? I don’t know… Anyway, I already took the pill, or the other half of the pill, today. It was easy because I felt no difference in anything yeasterday. I had the usual problems with obssessing and punishing myself, even broke a mirror, and didn’t get around to doing much in the afternoon because of the fantasies, but by evening I felt much calmer and wasn’t worrying about anything and felt pretty clear minded. I don’t know if this had anything to do with the med or not, I had taken it about 7 hours before I felt better. Also I got neck stiffness and pain, and I had heard Risperdal can cause this, but it is normal for me to get neck stiffness and pain because of the fibromyalgia. I think it was more likely brought on by the tension from the anxiety I was feeling about starting a new med, then by the med itself. It was a pretty miniscule amount I took anyway, I doubt it would have caused such a reaction, and as I said it is common for me normally. Also I had some insomnia, but this started two nights before I took the med and also is likely caused by the anxiety of trying a new med. So I guess so far so good. No obssessing this morning yet either. I’ll keep you all posted. Sasha.
Response:
Keep up the good work Sasha. Sounds like your making progress. And actually this writing style ’stream of consciousness’ is actually quite healthy. Posting isn’t for everyone else, unless of course your one of the nasty posters at the moment, rather posting is for YOU. Write as much as you like about what you like, if someone doesn’t want to read it well they probably have their own reason for that. I sometimes can’t read long posts but the ones I find interesting I do, when I am able. Getting things from your mind onto paper or a screen can help you work out problems on your own and help you sort things out. Help you think clearer at times. The med your going to have to give more time I am afraid. These things don’t work fast enough for me, I am sure you feel the same. At least your doing it and trying the best you can. "All we can do is our best, and that is all we can do!" Xanman – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi all I just wanted to thank everyone who answered to my post on appointment with new pdoc and trying to take pill. I read them all and had lots to say in reply but can not manage to reply to them all. It seems I am always having to do this. Those last two replies I started yesterday and just finished them. I cannot manage a short message for some reason. I have done it before, but I am thinking too much to do it now. I think I am unable to filter through my thoughts and get down to the point I am trying to make. I just write in stream of consciousness and write down whatever I think. Sometimes I think I should go back and revise the post but then I just start getting confused. I guess I should just write thanks for your advice to everyone’s reply but it just seems wrong when I have so much more to say but then I never get around to saying it. I have this trouble when I talk to people. I try to filter through my thoughts to find the right thing to say but I just get confused. Maybe the meds might help with this? I don’t know… Anyway, I already took the pill, or the other half of the pill, today. It was easy because I felt no difference in anything yeasterday. I had the usual problems with obssessing and punishing myself, even broke a mirror, and didn’t get around to doing much in the afternoon because of the fantasies, but by evening I felt much calmer and wasn’t worrying about anything and felt pretty clear minded. I don’t know if this had anything to do with the med or not, I had taken it about 7 hours before I felt better. Also I got neck stiffness and pain, and I had heard Risperdal can cause this, but it is normal for me to get neck stiffness and pain because of the fibromyalgia. I think it was more likely brought on by the tension from the anxiety I was feeling about starting a new med, then by the med itself. It was a pretty miniscule amount I took anyway, I doubt it would have caused such a reaction, and as I said it is common for me normally. Also I had some insomnia, but this started two nights before I took the med and also is likely caused by the anxiety of trying a new med. So I guess so far so good. No obssessing this morning yet either. I’ll keep you all posted. Sasha.
Response:
Hi all I just wanted to thank everyone who answered to my post on appointment with new pdoc and trying to take pill. I read them all and had lots to say in reply but can not manage to reply to them all. It seems I am always having to do this. Those last two replies I started yesterday and just finished them. I cannot manage a short message for some reason. I have done it before, but I am thinking too much to do it now. I think I am unable to filter through my thoughts and get down to the point I am trying to make. I just write in stream of consciousness and write down whatever I think. Sometimes I think I should go back and revise the post but then I just start getting confused. I guess I should just write thanks for your advice to everyone’s reply but it just seems wrong when I have so much more to say but then I never get around to saying it. I have this trouble when I talk to people. I try to filter through my thoughts to find the right thing to say but I just get confused. Maybe the meds might help with this? I don’t know… Anyway, I already took the pill, or the other half of the pill, today. It was easy because I felt no difference in anything yeasterday. I had the usual problems with obssessing and punishing myself, even broke a mirror, and didn’t get around to doing much in the afternoon because of the fantasies, but by evening I felt much calmer and wasn’t worrying about anything and felt pretty clear minded. I don’t know if this had anything to do with the med or not, I had taken it about 7 hours before I felt better. Also I got neck stiffness and pain, and I had heard Risperdal can cause this, but it is normal for me to get neck stiffness and pain because of the fibromyalgia. I think it was more likely brought on by the tension from the anxiety I was feeling about starting a new med, then by the med itself. It was a pretty miniscule amount I took anyway, I doubt it would have caused such a reaction, and as I said it is common for me normally. Also I had some insomnia, but this started two nights before I took the med and also is likely caused by the anxiety of trying a new med. So I guess so far so good. No obssessing this morning yet either. I’ll keep you all posted. Sasha.
