Nik update…Thank you ASD
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Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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Hi, I cannot believe what a roller coaster ride being bi-polar is!!!!! Sometimes I wish I could just get off this ride. I am a photographer, And a mom, and a wife. I was so deppressed last week,I hid from everyone Ive learned to do this so I dont hurt relationships, or misread people. Now this weekend I feel great, my house is clean,life is good, Joni* – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week.
Nik, have you tried Shiatsu? I know a gal that used to have spirit killing migraines, and she strated working with Shiatsu massage, and it *really* helped her. She still gets them on rare occassions, but it’s not anywhere near the frequency or intensity of what she used to experience. She teaches classes in it now at Kaiser. Shiatsu for migraine management. — greg :: Bodhisattva with a real bad attitude Take the *JUNKMAIL out of my addy to reply by email
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Nik – Glad you made it through a little while, anyway. I went through exactly the same thing day before yesterday, right down to the uncontrollable crying. Who’s your insurance company? Sometimes if your GP begs them, they’ll authorize meds that aren’t on their formulary. HealthPartners has done that for me with the Migranal and now with Imitrex. — Pegetha "Just when you accept that life’s a bitch, it has puppies."
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is
temporary and I have – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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(<(<(<(<(<(<(<(<( NIKNIK ))))))))))) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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I’ve been there, I made it, if I can , you can. ya know, I think it will pass, then someday it’s all going to happen again. Unfortunately, we will get sick , we will have accidents, each one you get thru makes you stronger. That believe makes it tolerable for me. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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Formularies piss me off! — Our lives begin to end the day we are silent about things that matter. Martin Luther King, Jr.
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Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds.
Nik, your pain sounds soooo familiar. Have you discussed Fibromyalgia with your doctor? Scrappy
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I know I didn’t reply to your post before, but I hope things get better for you. <<huggs and take care, Rick – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -(MycatGiz) writes: Well, I made it thru a whopping 2 1/2 hours at work. I went to my new supervisor and told her I know this did not look good to start off with. She said it was out of my control. I just started crying cuz I know she doubted part of it. Basically, I have been so focused on my shoulder and neck problems, arthritis or whatever the fuck it is, that I have not scheduled an appointment with a neuro to get migraine meds. I usually migraine once a month. But when it rains or I am under stress I can have situations like this week. Anyway, because I have been relying on my GP’s sample supply of Imitrex and Zomig, I have ended up unprepared for this one and the insurance company has not cleared coverage for the Zomig ($19.29 a pill). I doubt they will without a neuro consult, regardless of my history. I am on new insurance and they don’t know my history. Plus I am under stress over the amount of pain meds I am on. I am stuck in a cycle that will take a long time to get off. But when I end up with a surprise migraine, that depletes my pain killers and I get in even deeper. It is a horrible cycle. I cried on my way home (well, teared up basically cuz crying hurts too much). This is making me so depressed. I am having semi-suicidal thoughts. Well, just thoughts of getting away from it all. I thought of packing up and just leaving town. I feel alone, even though I have support here and in real life. Everything is so confused because I am so into the medication mess that I can’t see my way out. And I can’t even begin to think about being depressed. I know I am, but it just gets pushed aside more and more cuz of the pain. But I know it is there when I start thinking about "no way out". So, that’s the saga. I have started back on the beta blockers for migraine prophylactic and am going to have to accept the fact that right now I can’t just BE better. I may feel wonderful tomorrow, but I can’t mislead myself that this means everything is getting better. It isn’t. It is temporary and I have a long way to go. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE RESPONDED. I have tried many many things and appreciate the suggestions. Trust me though, I am trying EVERYTHING! Anyway, that is the story so far. I may get a "talking to" about this at work (hopefully that’s all that will happen), but I don’t know what to tell them. My work is done, I brought home a bunch of stuff and basically am caught up. So, the issue is not lack of productivity. So, who knows. Thank you everyone for your words of support and encouragement. Hopefully someday this will be solved. Right now, I would be happy just to be depressed. Isn’t that ironic, huh? Love to you all. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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It’s about typical. Another thing HP is really good at is changing their formulary and not telling anyone. — Pegetha "Just when you accept that life’s a bitch, it has puppies."
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Sometimes if your GP begs them, they’ll authorize meds that aren’t on their formulary. HealthPartners has done that for me with the Migranal and now with Imitrex. I know i answered in email, but just FYI….my pdoc and HP are having it out over Ambien. I have taken it on average three times a week over the past couple years and it has really helped my insomnia (i.e. waking up every two hours). They absolutely refuse to cover it and claim it to be the "next halcion"…..guess what *is* on their formulary though? Halcion. Go figure. Nik "So it’s Rorschach and Prozac and everything is groovy" Nick Cave, Murder Ballads Home Page – http://members.aol.com/niknik7/main.html
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I know i answered in email, but just FYI….my pdoc and HP are having it out over Ambien. I have taken it on average three times a week over the past couple years and it has really helped my insomnia (i.e. waking up every two hours). They absolutely refuse to cover it and claim it to be the "next halcion"…..guess what *is* on their formulary though? Halcion.
Nik, ever thought about trying an intermidiate acting sleep med like ProSom (estazolam)? There is no rebound insomnia like from Ambien, and there is no "hang over" like from Trazadone. I understand that it works well for DFA, FA, and/or EMA. Just a suggestion. Victor
