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I actually agree with you – I do not feel sad, crying, etc. Just stressed out overly so from my kids. But, I think it’s part of the whole process and when I get really crazy, I am going to use .25 mg of Klonopin! I think that’s pretty mild and since I"m feeling so good overall – I would rather just take it when I really can’t deal or find myself getting too angry at the kids. I need to get over this "paranoia" complex! In terms of every one’s purpose in this world is to irritate me! But, conversely, on the Lex, I was a zombie to some degree who just swallowed EVERY little bit of "shit" that was given to me. And, that made me feel 10 x worse. Here’s the issue, I have a husband who wants me to be Ms. Sweetie all the time, I’m convinced. He can’t tolerate any "rising up" from me so to speak even though he can be a jerk etc. So, he’s in for a bit of a rude awakening. Unfortunately, I have not told him I’ve gone off the meds b/c he will just yell at me. Oh well, what a process. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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::I actually agree with you – I do not feel sad, crying, etc. Just ::stressed out overly so from my kids. But, I think it’s part of the ::whole process and when I get really crazy, I am going to use .25 mg of ::Klonopin! I think that’s pretty mild and since I"m feeling so good ::overall – I would rather just take it when I really can’t deal or find ::myself getting too angry at the kids. :: ::I need to get over this "paranoia" complex! In terms of every one’s ::purpose in this world is to irritate me! But, conversely, on the Lex, I ::was a zombie to some degree who just swallowed EVERY little bit of ::"shit" that was given to me. And, that made me feel 10 x worse. ::Here’s the issue, I have a husband who wants me to be Ms. Sweetie all ::the time, I’m convinced. He can’t tolerate any "rising up" from me so ::to speak even though he can be a jerk etc. So, he’s in for a bit of a ::rude awakening. Unfortunately, I have not told him I’ve gone off the ::meds b/c he will just yell at me. Oh well, what a process. Dear Abbey, I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. My first two kids are 16 months apart. The first few years were fun, but a lot work and very stressful at times. Abbey, do you ever do anything nice for yourself? Do you ever get any ‘me’ time? It`s easy to lose oneself when working hard to be a good mom and wife. Don`t forget to take care of ‘Abbey’ too. Jackie ~*~Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them~*~ ~~Shawn Alexander — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I actually agree with you – I do not feel sad, crying, etc. Just stressed out overly so from my kids. But, I think it’s part of the whole process and when I get really crazy, I am going to use .25 mg of Klonopin! I think that’s pretty mild and since I"m feeling so good overall – I would rather just take it when I really can’t deal or find myself getting too angry at the kids. I need to get over this "paranoia" complex! In terms of every one’s purpose in this world is to irritate me! But, conversely, on the Lex, I was a zombie to some degree who just swallowed EVERY little bit of "shit" that was given to me. And, that made me feel 10 x worse. Here’s the issue, I have a husband who wants me to be Ms. Sweetie all the time, I’m convinced. He can’t tolerate any "rising up" from me so to speak even though he can be a jerk etc. So, he’s in for a bit of a rude awakening. Unfortunately, I have not told him I’ve gone off the meds b/c he will just yell at me. Oh well, what a process.
Medication had me feeling somewhat like a zombie for years and it took a lot away from me I think. My wife gets a bit territorial when I start doing some of the things that I used to and she took over when I was too ill. That’s too bad because I’m going to do some of the things that I was able to do before no matter what and no matter who likes it. So, I might just understand a little of what you are facing. Good luck. ((((((((Abbey)))))))))) (I hope that is right) — Ron P If it doesn’t hurt today, it probably will tomorrow. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Ok, ok, I’ve probably gone and done it because I sort of accidentally stopped my 20 mg of Lexapro cold turkey. I"m new here, because, must admit, didn’t have any issues whatsoever on the Lexapro – well, unless you count 10 lbs I can’t lose, excessive tiredness, cloudy "head", forgetfulness, etc. Anyway, I forgot to take it for 2 days for some reason – that was last Weds or Thurs. After I realized this, I also realized, hey, I feel fine. So, I went one more day, then another and now here we are 1 week later. But, I feel way better than fine – almost "manic". Or, is it that the Lexapro symptoms of lethargy, cloudiness,e tc. are finally lifted? Trust me, I"ve accomplished more work in the past week then I think I have on 2 years of Lexapro (initially prescribed for a major PPD meltdown after my last baby). Long story short here – my concern at this point is severe anger and insomnia. Will this abate? I feel so angry and irritable. In fact, I just smacked my daughter for well, a reason, but not a good enough one. And, I"ve taken .5 mg Klonopin the past 3 nights and have slept wonderfully but am concerned about dependence. Now, don’t tell me to ask my doctor because my psychiatrist is about 100 years old and doesn’t care about me – just wants to prescribe and have me be on my way. He’s about the only psychiatrist that is actually accepting patients that is in my ins. network. Whew – can any of you share your experiences? Thanks very much! – Linda — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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<gently snipped ::Long story short here – my concern at this point is severe anger and ::insomnia. Will this abate? I feel so angry and irritable. In fact, I ::just smacked my daughter for well, a reason, but not a good enough one. :: And, I"ve taken .5 mg Klonopin the past 3 nights and have slept ::wonderfully but am concerned about dependence. :: ::Now, don’t tell me to ask my doctor because my psychiatrist is about ::100 years old and doesn’t care about me – just wants to prescribe and ::have me be on my way. He’s about the only psychiatrist that is ::actually accepting patients that is in my ins. network. :: ::Whew – can any of you share your experiences? Thanks very much! – Linda Dear Linda, I`m really sorry to hear that you are going through a bad spell right now. It is imperative you talk to a doctor, whether it is the 100 year old one, or your GP. I`m no doctor, but am concerned about your manic symptoms and that you smacked your daughter. You could be experiencing withdrawals, a reemergence of your depression, or something else. Only a professional can tell you for sure. Unless you take care of this ASAP, there is potential for you to hit your daughter again. You could end up really hurting irritability do not mix well with a two year old. You also should tell your husband how angry and irritable you feel. If this were ‘me’, I would get myself back on the lexapro immediately. I would then make it a point to find a better doctor to discuss changing the lexapro to a med that doesn`t make me so tired. For your sake, for your daughter`s sake, pick up the phone and call a doctor. If you find yourself feeling really angry to the point you have the urge to hit your daughter again, get someone to come over and stay with you. Good luck and please keep us posted!! Jackie ~*~Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them~*~ ~~Shawn Alexander — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Ok, ok, I’ve probably gone and done it because I sort of accidentally stopped my 20 mg of Lexapro cold turkey.
As I understand it, stopping an SSRI you’ve taken for so long cold turkey can bring about some nasty changes in brain chemistry. Your brain has gotten accustomed to the 20mg and all of a sudden it doesn’t have it. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Ok, ok, I’ve probably gone and done it because I sort of accidentally stopped my 20 mg of Lexapro cold turkey. I"m new here, because, must admit, didn’t have any issues whatsoever on the Lexapro – well, unless you count 10 lbs I can’t lose, excessive tiredness, cloudy "head", forgetfulness, etc.
Go back to taking your lexapro. If you want to stop, you need to ween down. You do not want to become violent towards your daughter. You will regret it. If your old pdoc will not listen, go to your regular doc and explain about your old-fart pdoc and how stopping cold turkey is making you feel manic and angry. Jim — There’s no place like 127.0.0.1 JimD Central FL, USA, Earth, Sol — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, ok, I’ve probably gone and done it because I sort of accidentally stopped my 20 mg of Lexapro cold turkey. I"m new here, because, must admit, didn’t have any issues whatsoever on the Lexapro – well, unless you count 10 lbs I can’t lose, excessive tiredness, cloudy "head", forgetfulness, etc. Anyway, I forgot to take it for 2 days for some reason – that was last Weds or Thurs. After I realized this, I also realized, hey, I feel fine. So, I went one more day, then another and now here we are 1 week later. But, I feel way better than fine – almost "manic". Or, is it that the Lexapro symptoms of lethargy, cloudiness,e tc. are finally lifted? Trust me, I"ve accomplished more work in the past week then I think I have on 2 years of Lexapro (initially prescribed for a major PPD meltdown after my last baby). Long story short here – my concern at this point is severe anger and insomnia. Will this abate? I feel so angry and irritable. In fact, I just smacked my daughter for well, a reason, but not a good enough one. And, I"ve taken .5 mg Klonopin the past 3 nights and have slept wonderfully but am concerned about dependence.
It sounds like mania. Better touch base with your doc fast. Chip Can J Psychiatry. 2003 May;48(4):258-64. *Switch to mania upon discontinuation of antidepressants* in patients with mood disorders: a review of the literature. Ali S, Milev R. OBJECTIVE: To review the literature for reported cases of mania related to discontinuing antidepressant treatment, as well as for possible explanations of this phenomenon, and to present a case report. METHOD: We undertook a literature review through the PubMed index, using the key words mania, antidepressant withdrawal, and antidepressants in bipolar disorder. We reviewed 11 articles featuring 23 cases. Where available, we noted and tabulated certain parameters for both bipolar disorder (BD) and unipolar depression. We use a case example to illustrate the phenomenon of mania induced by antidepressant withdrawal. RESULTS: *For patients with unipolar depression, we found 17 reported cases of mania induced by antidepressant withdrawal*. Antidepressants implicated included tricyclic antidepressants (TCAs) (12/17), monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs) (2/17), trazodone (1/17), mirtazapine (1/17), and paroxetine (1/17). For patients with BD, we found 19 reported cases of mania induced by antidepressant withdrawal, including our own case example. Of these, selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) (10/19), TCAs (4/19), MAOIs (2/19), and serotonin norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) (2/19) were implicated. CONCLUSION: Our case report supports the observation of antidepressant withdrawal-induced mania in patients with BD. It is distinguishable from antidepressant-induced mania, physiological drug withdrawal, and mania as a natural course of the illness. Many theories have been put forward to explain this occurrence. Noradrenergic hyperactivity and "withdrawal-induced cholinergic overdrive and the cholinergic-monoaminergic system" are the 2 most investigated and supported models. The former is limited by poor clinical correlation and the latter by its applicability only to anticholinergic drugs. PMID: 12776393 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE] http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/entrez/query.fcgi?cmd=Retrieve&db=pubmed&… — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Thank you for this post – it was the most helpful. Now, I have to clarify that when I smacked my daughter, it was a tap and I am NOT justifying it but I also feel like my kids can act very poorly and sometimes time outs, other punishments, etc. don’t do the trick. I happen to work for a psychologist and never want to mix work/personal but maybe I will ask for his help. However, I am much more calm today so I guess the stuff weaned out more. As for those who suggested going back on, I really don’t want to at this point b/c I don’t think I am depressed! In fact, I will discuss that with whoever I see b/c how do you know when you are cured? I’ve had bouts of milder depression over the years and then big time PPD after the birth of my twins and also my son. My son is the 2 year old and I have been on Lexapro since shortly after his birth – I tried to make it for about 3 months and then tried to check myself into a mental hosp. – they wouldn’t take me – said it was panic disorder and I wasn’t really "crazy". Glad to hear but that didn’t help. Anyway, between a combo of the Lex & Klono – I was finally ok but not up to par and it’s been this way for a while. So, thanks all for sharing your thoughts – and, I totally apologized to my daughter – told her I would get control of my anger, etc. It’s hard But again, I explained to her I was wrong – etc. and that I would work on what I did and I think she understood! — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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<gently snipped ::However, I am much more calm today so I guess the stuff weaned out ::more. As for those who suggested going back on, I really don’t want to ::at this point b/c I don’t think I am depressed! In fact, I will ::discuss that with whoever I see b/c how do you know when you are cured? Dear Abbey, Sorry if we came on too strong. It`s hard when we don`t know you, and have to go by what you write in a post. I was worried for your daughter, and I was worried about you too. I`m glad you are doing better today. How do you know when you are cured? Hmmm, that is a hard one. Mental disorders are usually chronic conditions that can be controlled and managed but not cured. Some people will always need to be on meds, while others only need them during setbacks. I have no idea what category you fall into to. You need to monitor future episodes of irritability and anger. A lot of people think depression is feeling sad and crying all the time. It can be, but it can also manifest itself in others way, like irritability, anger, etc. Being you want to try being med free, it would be a good idea to have some support in the way of a psychologist. Good luck!! Jackie ~*~Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them~*~ ~~Shawn Alexander — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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