Hallucination
Question:
I hate it when hallucinations catch me out. It’s rare, I think, but how can I tell? I mean, just because I sometimes know I’ve hallucinated, it doesn’t mean I know all the time, does it? Why are you hallucinating Alan, is it lack of sleep or drug induced or something else?
Straight depression, I think; it is a recognised symptom. I’ve done it since my breakdown, certainly, and I don’t remember doing it before. Maybe it’s more common on these meds, I’m not sure, but I hallucinated when I was med-free while changing to an MAOI, so I’m sure it’s the illness. One of the joys of being up here near the psychotic border. As a certain hero in my book finds, once you know you’ve hallucinated, you can never be quite sure of your senses again. Even when I know it’s happening, it gets a bit scary at times – the half-hour long ones, for instance. Mind you, I have had sexual hallucinations, which make up for it a bit. 
— The opinions given above may be mine. They might also just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
Response:
how do you know he didn’t the second time?
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Wynne read the new book I’ve started on, all two chapters so far, and said it was good, and would I please write some more. Then later, he came back in and said it was hilarious. Only he didn’t come in the second time. I hate it when hallucinations catch me out. It’s rare, I think, but how can I tell? I mean, just because I sometimes know I’ve hallucinated, it doesn’t mean I know all the time, does it? It’s rather worrying. — The opinions given above may be mine. They might also just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
Response:
Wynne read the new book I’ve started on, all two chapters so far, and said it was good, and would I please write some more. Then later, he came back in and said it was hilarious. Only he didn’t come in the second time. I hate it when hallucinations catch me out. It’s rare, I think, but how can I tell? I mean, just because I sometimes know I’ve hallucinated, it doesn’t mean I know all the time, does it? It’s rather worrying. how do you know he didn’t the second time?
His reaction when I asked him about it – total bemusement. ‘But it isn’t hilarious!’ It would have been possible that he was sleep-walking, but he wasn’t asleep. And he doesn’t play tricks. And I hallucinate most days. This was just better than I’ve noticed before. — The opinions given above may be mine. They might also just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
Response:
Wynne read the new book I’ve started on, all two chapters so far, and said it was good, and would I please write some more. Then later, he came back in and said it was hilarious. Only he didn’t come in the second time. I hate it when hallucinations catch me out. It’s rare, I think, but how can I tell? I mean, just because I sometimes know I’ve hallucinated, it doesn’t mean I know all the time, does it? It’s rather worrying. — The opinions given above may be mine. They might also just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
