Haven't felt good for a while…
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Ok Ok. Maybe you should post on alt.poetry.fuckedupmaniacs.weirdoes How is that for starting a flame.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – If my name is said will I come to your mind Will memories flood into your thoughts? I’d hope you would see me as I really was Not through eyes of guilt or wasted tears Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again And if we should meet will you greet me with warmth Or will you walk past me in shame? Or maybe regrets will crowd into your heart And you’ll see me as I could have been Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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Ha ha ha – sounds good to me – well fucked up here – have been for MANY years
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok Ok. Maybe you should post on alt.poetry.fuckedupmaniacs.weirdoes How is that for starting a flame. If my name is said will I come to your mind Will memories flood into your thoughts? I’d hope you would see me as I really was Not through eyes of guilt or wasted tears Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again And if we should meet will you greet me with warmth Or will you walk past me in shame? Or maybe regrets will crowd into your heart And you’ll see me as I could have been Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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Across the room I saw the face The one without regrets Who is well placed Platitudes flow again False smiles beguile again How I was fooled She broke the rules Ten years ago Is it so long? He was my Romeo Then things went wrong I was not glamorous She got so amourous What chance had I? Being so shy She held the floor I stand alone I need nobody now This, I’ve been shown I walk undaunted now I’ll always be The one who’s free This was my poem – in a REALLY good mood – most of my stuff was dark – I don’t feel so positive about life now and I’m 30.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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If my name is said will I come to your mind Will memories flood into your thoughts? I’d hope you would see me as I really was Not through eyes of guilt or wasted tears Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again And if we should meet will you greet me with warmth Or will you walk past me in shame? Or maybe regrets will crowd into your heart And you’ll see me as I could have been Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – If my name is said will I come to your mind Will memories flood into your thoughts? I’d hope you would see me as I really was Not through eyes of guilt or wasted tears Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again And if we should meet will you greet me with warmth Or will you walk past me in shame? Or maybe regrets will crowd into your heart And you’ll see me as I could have been Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again
Your probably sick of me replying to your posts but I will this one last time tonight cause I have to say that is THE most beautiful poem I have ever read I know precisely how you feel. Web Page at: www.robertpo.com For email replies remove the ****
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Ok Ok. Maybe you should post on alt.poetry.fuckedupmaniacs.weirdoes How is that for starting a flame.
Doesn’t start one here. I’m a fucked up maniac and a weirdo, so no problems. They were good. Matt — "We’re all mad, you see. I’m mad, you’re mad, we’re all of us quite insane. Who wouldn’t be, after all this time doing this crap?" "Why do you think I’m mad?" "Why, of course you’re mad. If you weren’t mad, you wouldn’t be here." – Jack L Chalker, "The Hot-Wired Dodo"
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Thanks
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Nice poem I liked it very much Across the room I saw the face The one without regrets Who is well placed Platitudes flow again False smiles beguile again How I was fooled She broke the rules Ten years ago Is it so long? He was my Romeo Then things went wrong I was not glamorous She got so amourous What chance had I? Being so shy She held the floor I stand alone I need nobody now This, I’ve been shown I walk undaunted now I’ll always be The one who’s free This was my poem – in a REALLY good mood – most of my stuff was dark – I don’t feel so positive about life now and I’m 30. I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise Web Page at: www.robertpo.com For email replies remove the ****
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Hang in there Louise. Sometimes it takes quite awhile to find the right med cocktail. I’m looking 7 years straight in the face (diagnosed). Haven’t been stable yet.
Woah. I’m passing 14 months, I’ve got my case worker despairing, I just keeping bouncing along and thumping the occasional thing as I go past. Matt — "We’re all mad, you see. I’m mad, you’re mad, we’re all of us quite insane. Who wouldn’t be, after all this time doing this crap?" "Why do you think I’m mad?" "Why, of course you’re mad. If you weren’t mad, you wouldn’t be here." – Jack L Chalker, "The Hot-Wired Dodo"
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Nice poem I liked it very much – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Across the room I saw the face The one without regrets Who is well placed Platitudes flow again False smiles beguile again How I was fooled She broke the rules Ten years ago Is it so long? He was my Romeo Then things went wrong I was not glamorous She got so amourous What chance had I? Being so shy She held the floor I stand alone I need nobody now This, I’ve been shown I walk undaunted now I’ll always be The one who’s free This was my poem – in a REALLY good mood – most of my stuff was dark – I don’t feel so positive about life now and I’m 30. I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
Web Page at: www.robertpo.com For email replies remove the ****
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Hang in there Louise. Sometimes it takes quite awhile to find the right med cocktail. I’m looking 7 years straight in the face (diagnosed). Haven’t been stable yet. Linda – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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Thank you both Thomas and Linda – both made me feel like a human being (a bit) again Thanks Doesn’t happen very often these days
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hang in there Louise. Sometimes it takes quite awhile to find the right med cocktail. I’m looking 7 years straight in the face (diagnosed). Haven’t been stable yet. Linda I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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Your poems are nice so don’t take note of Cheese Effect. And welcome back 
Thomas – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – If my name is said will I come to your mind Will memories flood into your thoughts? I’d hope you would see me as I really was Not through eyes of guilt or wasted tears Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again And if we should meet will you greet me with warmth Or will you walk past me in shame? Or maybe regrets will crowd into your heart And you’ll see me as I could have been Will my eyes be seen in the dark of the night In place of the stars in the sky And will I just fade in the stark light of day Never to be thought of again I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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Just want to share a bit of the poetry I wrote when I was 15 – 15 years ago : Slowly walking Almost carefully Crushing damp Neglected grass Stop Wait Listen Where? Down there. Drowsy floating Sleep walking Standing by A bus shelter Rain Wet Cold Here? Not there.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
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I wrote this when I was 13: Deep in darkess is the earth All ’till morning breaks the birth Midnight swallows all around Into thus the fearful down Shadows moving to and fro As specks of light begin to show Birds will twitter here and there The life of thus is everwhere…
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’ve been in a really depressed mood for the last 4 weeks. Coming out of it now. My PS doc has reviewed my notes and wants to put me on Lithium as well as increasing my Prozac and putting me on other stuff ( yet to be decided). Just wanted to let you all know – I haven’t been away through choice. I still feel very close to you all and think this is the best newsgroup I’ve ever come across. Louise
